I’m going out of my mind lately. Just when I thought I had my medicines straight, I end up feeling like my body is going to either explode or shutdown completely. On top of it, working in the complaint department for every whiny a-hole that can’t get on Facebook or the email they sent 2 seconds ago hasn’t arrived in Paraguay yet. So now their panties are bunched up over it. Oh and let us not forget the endless waiting to finally go home. It’s enough to make someone go postal.
Not to mention, although I have before…. A true, honest to goodness vacation is something I haven’t seen since 1988. At least not one that I’ve actually gotten to go somewhere I’ve never been before, actually enjoy myself and truly relax. Sure there was that trip to D.C. However, it was a one day trip, no stay over and the rest of the time I was at home. Outside of that, it’s been stay at home vacations or go visit family. I love my family dearly. I really do. Though I really, really want to just get away from everything for a few days and just forget my life is as it is these days. To quote Ben Affleck in Jay and Silent Bob Strikes Back:
When Lord? When the fuck can your servant ditch this foul-mouthed little chucklehead to whom I am a constant victim of his folly, so much so that it prevents him from ever getting to kiss a girl! Fuck! When, Lord when? WHENS GONNA BE MY TIME?”
OK so, not exactly the words I was looking for, but you get the point. When? When is going to be my time? I mean all I’m asking for is a bit of happiness in this world and some time to actually enjoy life for a change.
It would also be really nice if I could not constantly feel like I need to be with in a 5 mile range of a hospital…
I just want to get away. Don’t have to be real far. Doesn’t need to be exotic. Certainly don’t need to be expensive. Not even glamorous. Just away. Just me and someone special. Alone for several days just doing whatever we feel like doing. It’s not like I don’t have the vacation time. Last time I used any of it, I was technically not working. Though, I certainly wasn’t enjoying myself either.
Problem is, I don’t have the money. Nor do I have anyone to cover me at work. Thanks to only having 2 whole employees. Hell, can’t even call in sick…
Just so damned frustrating….