NSFW Warning: If you are not into tattoos, topics about kinky sex or the like. Turn back now, do not read further. If you do read further, please do not simply bash just because you don’t agree. No one is forcing you to read this or view the images.
Now that we’ve gotten that out of the way, on with the show.
Back in either late 1994 or early 1995, I got my first tattoo. I liked the whole mythical vampire thing. This was before the Twilight movies that made vampires go emo and twinkle. Fuck you Stephenie Meyer! It was of a simple drawing of a black rose. It was to symbolize a clan of vampires known as the Toreador, found in a Dungeons and Dragons type game called Vampire: The Masquerade. I customized it by turning it upside down (originally it was lying on its side), and then had blood coming from it. It was unique and it was mine.
Earlier this year, my youngest daughter Bethany honored me by having the exact same tattoo done on her calf. It looks simply remarkable. It flatters me to know that I was such a part of her life that she shows it permanently on herself.
Life has certainly changed for me over the past few years. Some ways good, other ways not good at all. Thankfully I was given another chance to make my life the way I want it to be. I have also started learning a lot about myself and how I’ve been denying myself happiness in order to please others. While I will still do my part for others, I will be focusing much more on what makes me happy. Life is too short to have yourself always in servitude to someone else just because you’ll think it will make them happy. While I had hoped it would make me happy to make them happy (wow head hurts…), it never really works out that way.
I’ve learned it’s harder for me to trust than it used to be. I used to give my heart away freely. You can only have it broken so many times before you realize you need to be more picky in your life mates. Be it woman or man. I swing toward women only, but hey that’s me. This has made me realize that trust should be earned, not just given because you are attracted to someone.
I’ve also learned that life is too short for boring ass sex. Over the past few years, I’ve started letting myself explore the “darker” sides of sex and find it really appeals to me. I like being dominate. I love a submissive lover. I like doing things that you don’t find in day to day textbook romance sex. While that is still good, it’s not what I want all the time. However, being an open person as I am, most everyone who knows me already knows I’m a freak in the bedroom 🙂
So I’m a Geek and a Freak. What of it? (yes, shameless plug, but that’s where the t-shirt idea came from)
So the idea had come to me for my second tattoo. Trust is Earned. Yes, I saw it in a porn and it just seemed to fit. So yeah, I am stealing the idea. Just as soon as I told a friend of mine, Gene, she’s getting it done this Wednesday the 24th at 4pm. (she’ll actually have it done before me 🙁 ) She’s having it done over her heart, I’m going to put it below the rose on my arm. (as seen in the picture above)
Finally, last but not least. I think I’ll get one more tattoo done. It’s one I’ve been chewing on since I got my first one done, but never actually had it put on. In my Navy days, I was referred too as “Bugs”. As in Bugs Bunny. Because at the time I was tall, skinny and a huge smart ass. (the smart ass thing never changed as you can tell) I, like my son, played the drums. So I always envisioned Bugs leaning against my arm, (oddly just like he does in the US Postage stamp of him) holding a pair of drum sticks. I’d really like to kick it up with him wearing my (then) trademark blue jean shorts and white tank top with some logo or other on it. This is my half-assed rendition of my vision of that tattoo.
Since I’ll be getting back into playing drums and I’m getting skinnier again (almost at my goal weight for this year!!), it might fit me again. Sure I won’t have a 29 inch waist or long blond hair like I used to have, but I’ll be in an acceptable range I think.
Not bad if I do say so myself 🙂