The new year is almost upon us.  The Mayan Apocalypse, just like so many “end of the world” threats before it, was nothing more than media hype as always.  I think at one point or another, I just stopped caring if the world would’ve ended on the 21st.  Well… That was a few months ago I felt that way.  I don’t feel that way now.

The past two years have been a hellacious torment in one form or another.  Between my marriage falling apart, being unhappy where I live, nearly dying and struggling constantly to keep my head above water has taken it’s toll on my soul.  Having nearly no friends in the area, it has felt like I’ve been isolated from everything and everyone.  It’s been very cold for having to live in this personal hell of mine.

If it weren’t for my oldest daughter’s kindness and my mother, I don’t honestly know where I would be right now.  If I would be at all.  Granted, my current situation isn’t by any means pleasant.  It is bearable at least.

It’s time to put that all behind me now and look to the future.  While the number 13 isn’t usually anyone’s lucky number.  I’m going to make it my lucky number.  I’ve worked damned hard to get myself back together over the past 10 months.  I’m exercising regularly and even though I constantly live in a small amount of pain and discomfort, I will continue to get better.  I sadly did not make my goal by Christmas of being under 300 pounds, but I’m damned close.  I will be under it soon.  I wish to get to 220 as a final goal and even then, I won’t stop walking and keeping active.  I plan to live for at least 10 more years if I can swing it.  More if possible.

2013 is also the year I’m going home to Michigan.  Perhaps not my home town, but at least close by.  My sons live in East Jordan, so somewhere near there with a job.  Perhaps Charlevoix or Petoskey, maybe even Boyne City or Boyne Falls area.  All are very close and I know them well.  My friends who live there as well as my family are waiting for me.  I’m way past due for this.  I won’t forget the family I have here, even though I’m no longer a part of the marriage that made them my family.  In my heart they will always be family no matter what.  Nor will I forget my one and only friend who lives here and has also been my Chiropractor for many years.

I also have a love interest that I’ve been working on for the past few months.  I’m hoping it will turn into something official soon.  More on that to come later

Sadly, since I still have a lot of time on my hands, I haven’t given up my gaming addiction completely, and I may never actually do so as I enjoy it.  However, I have cut way down on the amount of time I spend killing dragons.  I tried to give up World of Warcraft, I just can’t.  I enjoy it too much.  Even if there’s freaking panda bears everywhere….  I can sum it up in two words.  FLYING MOUNTS!!!

I officially restarted my account on Christmas Day.  I was just so freaking bored sitting at home.  Minecraft is cool and all, but I’ve gotta have my flying mounts and I love my Azeroth.  I just limit myself to an hour or two a day.  It’s enough to get a few things accomplished.  Then it’s back to the real world

One final note, as per usual, I have created a new look to my website for the new year.  It’s a bit dark.  It sort of represents my travels through the darkness these past two years.  While it’s now time to step back into the light, I just have a thing for Black and Gold.  If you can’t see the new site, because you are on your mobile, set your browser to ask for the Desktop version.  (just don’t forget to set it back when you’re done admiring )